Back to work

Well tomorrow is the day I've been dreading for the last three months, I go back to work. I am trying to focus on the positive things...my family will have great insurance, we will have money to live comfortably, I only have to work three days a week, we don't have to pay for childcare. I keep telling myself all these things but in all honesty all I want to do is stay home with Kayler. It is surprising to me how much I truly long to be at home. 

Over the past 12 weeks I have enjoyed not only being a mommy but also being a wife. I am actually getting satisfaction out of doing household things like laundry and cleaning and cooking. I love being able to spend my time how I want with my family and friends. 

I am not looking forward to the stress of my job. I am also worried about how I'm going to be able to keep up breast feeding and pumping. My job is not easy, it is intense and stressful but I enjoy it and I've worked very hard to get here. I am just going to have to focus on one thing at a time and know that that's really all I can do. 

I ask for your prayers as I adjust to a new schedule and routine.