Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Count down mode

I am officially in count down mode for this pregnancy. While I have very much enjoyed being pregnant and it has been very easy I'm ready to have control of my body again. The discomforts are starting to pile up. For example; my thermostat is at least 10 degrees warmer than normal, my stomach is actually sore from all the activity on the inside, the insane amount of nightly bathroom trips, inability to eat even half of what I want due to the compression of my stomach in my chest etc...I could go on but I won't. I know all of you mothers out there already know what I'm talking about. None of it is that bad but nevertheless I'm ready to be done with it.
That being said I had a freak-out moment yesterday. Having not slept nearly the entire night Sunday I called in to work, something I rarely ever do. The next morning I realized that there may be many nights to come that are that way and that I have only seven weeks left. In seven weeks I'm going to be a mommy. I will be responsible for meeting all the needs of this little person. That really freaks me out. Life will never be the same. I've heard that it all changes for the better but part of me is still skeptical as I like my life the way it is. Too late now. :)
I said a long prayer yesterday about becoming parents, for our daughter and all the fears and anxieties that I have. Justin and I were at the store the other day and there were all these kids and their parents were constantly yelling at them. I so don't want to do that. I know there are going to be many more prayers going up to Heaven. Good thing I have several guardian angels up there. :)

1 comment:

Jill Wood said...

Ashley-I promise you will yell. Probably not until you have two children, but you will yell, and it will be okay. Your children will forgive you... :o)